Gone Too Soon.

I was not even trying to hear anything that remotely sounded like "Michael Jackson died" last night. Those words don't belong in the same sentence together. They do not compute. My thoughts are completely scattered. Some of which I was able to purge on Twitter last night with the rest of my family. But honestly, at a mere 24 hours in, I cannot fathom what tomorrow will look like. I feel like whatever was left of my childhood was obliterated. That's why I'm posting this clip.

Michael Jackson is synonymous with a lot of things, good and not so good. But to me, the main thing, the thing that always makes me choke up (even before his passing) was his artistry as a kid. Charismatic. Kind. Hard-working in spite of his many fears. Compassionate. Impossibly talented, more than he had any right to be at that age. And that voice. Michael's voice as a kid managed to make every emotion inside of me bubble to the surface, whether it was from "Got To Be There," "Ben," "I'll Be There" or "Never Can Say Goodbye." I could never hold it together then, and now? After this? Who knows...
I cannot imagine any kid not aspiring to this, or not being in awe. When Thriller dropped, Michael was already a grown man. But I always wanted to be Little Mike.
I cannot deal with this right now.



5 Responses

  1. Most grown folks in the industry today can't do the run from the beginning of "Who's Lovin' You"—a testiment to his talent and understanding of music. I was 2 years old in 1969, but I remember watching the J5 on TV whenever they were on, my folks buying and playing the Motown singles, "ABC," "I Want You Back," "Love You Save," and singing, dancing and pretending to be Lil' MJ with my brother & sister.
    I have been mourning these childhood memories for a good 25 years now, but thanks to technology, they will always be with us, which has been keeping me going, and making me smile all these years.

  2. I can't even read posts about him... just know I miss him... I can't help it 🙁

  3. It's funny NOVA I feel the same way when everr I hear a reporter say DEAth & MJ in the same sentence I look at them like they have lost their mind. My brain can't seem to register that no matter how many times I hear it

  4. "I was not even trying to hear anything that remotely sounded like "Michael Jackson died" last night."
    You have no idea how much this is true! I refused to hear it. It did not compute. He is and always has been invincible.

  5. You said what I've been feeling.
    It's been nearly 48 hours and I still cannot believe what happened. It doesn't make any sense to me. I had no idea this loss would cut so deep. I still feel overwhelmed...